How do you write about a life you never imagined? A life where you are in a constant world of ups and downs. Where you are in so much love with someone, yet it can hurt so much at the same time.

Being with someone who struggles to process the world at the same pace is hard. It is, feeling like balancing and grounding everything at the same time, always. It is always feeling you have to pick them up, which you do, because they took a slice of your heart, and you are absolutely okay with that.

On the flipside, they can’t function the way you do. They admire you for the things you say and do, and try to model that, but become stressed and exhausted with failure if they can’t do so. Their head is nit picking every second of the day and their sensory processing is so sensitive.

When I met him. I fell in love, almost right away. I did not know. But I had a feeling that I did not want to stop seeing him. This kind person who seemed drowned in misery. That may not sound nice to others, but it was the truth. However, we fit together as I too, was drown in misery. We found each other at a time we least expected it, yet the universe provided us with a moment to find each other and fight for each other, which we have never stopped doing.

Over time, I have slowly met his soul and this has been the most beautiful part of our journey. To feel him love himself has taken a long time. To know that he is not going to hurt himself that day has taken a long time. This is not a life he ever imagined, nor a life I ever imagined, but I would not live it any other way.

Why could you not love him for all he was? The kindest of hearts I have ever felt.